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I've been on a plateau for a while now and I know that it's due to not exercising enough. But I worked so hard this last week, doing cardio for at least a half an hour every single day, and weights on top of that every other day. I'm really happy that it paid off and I lost THREE POUNDS. Yay. Finally my goal is in sight and I only need 12 more lbs before I'm to my goal weight. I never thought I'd get this far. It's amazing, and also amazingly hard. I feel so hopeless when I'm struggling on the treadmill or gasping on the elliptical machine but the changes in my body make it all worth it. Losing weight is one of the most amazing experiences I've ever gone through and to some extent I still don't feel like it's real because I've been fat since I was 9 years old. So in essence, I'm still a fat girl in an (almost) normal body.
Anyway, on the more negative side, things are stressing me out. I'm changing jobs, currently looking for a new one, I'm trying to lose the rest of this weight, and I'm trying to get at least a 3.5 GPA in school. So basically I don't even have time to eat, even when I want to. If I don't have any options other than vending machine food or pizza, I just won't eat. So, I go hungry a lot of the time and my body is going through a lot of duress. It's tough but I know that it's all worth it and I'm having amazing experiences and amazing bounds of confidence (or what I consider bounds of confidence). Also, I have little to no social time which kind of sucks. I can't enjoy meeting boys or friends but I know I'll have time for that later. It'll be such a joy to wear a bikini for the first time in my life this summer. And I know I can get to that point.
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