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Yesterday it has been a bad day. Not as bad as few months ago, anyway, I felt unhappy and sad.
Saturday there has been an outreach event at the place where I used to work. Is has been unpaid work, to explain people about research there. I usually like to do outreach, even if after this kind of events I feel kind of "drained" of my energies and motivation. So it went yesterday.
I had doubts about all sides of my life, feeling uncertain about everything. It seemed to me I failed at everything.
Then I started thinking that I got my degree at university, I am able to work again, I overcame depression, I will do a photo exhibition in December, I am going to climbing class in a few weeks, I am able to swim 1km again, I have lost 20 pounds. And I have beenliving in this foreign country alone for 2 years, without speaking the language but few sentences. It has been tough, to loose my mum, to see few weeks after my husband was not the person he made think he was. I am here, I am alive, I am stronger. The storm is over, I got to rebuild and fix everything.
All these toughts made me feel a bit better, so I have been able to sleep very late at night. Today I feel a bit better than yesterday. I will go to the gym in the afternoon ar skating if it does not rain.
Things I am thankful for today:
-being strong
-creative ideas
-nice little flat where Ilive
-support from friends and FS buddies
-coffee
-being able to write down about my amotions
Life is good! :)
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