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Day 3 & feeling stronger. Can't believe its 2;00 in the afternoon & I'm just getting online... will this be my life now that my oldest is home? It 's really great having him here & so far he's pulling his weight & abiding by the house rules we established. Of course, you'll be the first to hear if that changes!
I was again struck by a song at my spinning class this morning (rain in the northeast, so had to go indoors :( ). This time it was "Best of You" by the Foo Fighters. It stars off with "I've got another confession to make", (which I did in last night's journal) and goes on to "Is someone getting the best of you?". Yes!, my inner rebel child/animal brain is & I've got to figure out a way to stop letting it happen. Even though I know I'll feel worse after, the temporary satisfaction of eating sugar is so all encompassing that my human/grownup brain doesn't have a fighting chance. I know they say recognition is the first step to solving a problem, but I've recognized this for quite some time, hence my frustration that I still keep doing it. Guess that confirms that I am insane... I keep doing the same thing & expecting a different outcome!
Well, I am doing better & happily following my new plan. I'm hoping that eating regularly, pre-planning my meals & snacks (quality protein, vegetables & some fats and no sugar including fruit for now) and again logging my food will keep be focused & on track till I leave again next Thurs... one day at a time. I'm doing the South Beach Gluten Solution & logging on their website to be sure I'm following it correctly. They claim that staying away from sugar including all fruit and gluten for these first 2 weeks helps with sugar cravings. I'll let you know if it works on me -- guess that makes me a a lab rat again!
Even though I'm partly through my day, I'll stop now to pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And I'll take this one day and each one meal, snack, bite, moment & emotion at a time, praying, breathing, journaling, logging & expressing my way. I'm oh so very grateful for each of you, my family & IRL friends, having my oldest with me & my youngest settled at college (did I tell you I might get to see him in Oct when we can hopefully meet up to visit my Mom?) and having the health & wealth to enjoy this life I love! xoxox
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