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Starting again! And all my neighbors dropped off holiday candy and cookies. I have to get rid of it. It's like drugs for me. I'm the heaviest I've EVER been. 231 pounds! I'm very uncomfortable in my own skin right now. Both physically and mentally. It's hard to be motivated when so much has to be done, no immediate gratification - it's going to be a long gradual road. But it has to be done. I can't take living like this with all of this fat hindering me. I feel like it is going to suffocate me because I gain it everywhere - even my fingers! It's getting harder to breath, harder to bend.
A few weeks ago, I got my blood test back and my blood counts are back to normal. (had some health issues causing this) But FINALLY! It's been years! I am officially no longer anemic! The test showed I was on the bottom edge of normal, but I expect that will continue to get better now that the source of my medical issues has been taken care of and I am completely healed from surgery. My energy is up (been anemic for so long, I forgot what it's like to actually have a bit more energy even when I am the heaviest I've ever been) Now I really have zero excuses. Life is the best it's been in five years, and now the only thing keeping me from being healthy is me. Now that I have my life back, it's time to get my body back. I now have the bodymedia link (bodybugg) so I will be recording my calories at the end of the day with the results. Not sure how I will do the meals. I will have to choose between bodymedia or FS. Wish FS would sync with it. I tried sparkpeople (TOO many ads!!) and a couple other affiliate sync programs, but nothing compares to FS (and it has improved since I was here before even).
So I'm back to do this again. Better again, then never again!
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