Day 7 gluten, lactose & sugar aware, and feeling better & better with each day! SIL arrived yesterday with her DH & 2 kids, and we had a nice day, dinner out & home to watch football & play a game of reverse charades (Santa brought it). It was a nice night, made nicer for me & by me not getting into sugar as I'd done too many nights over the holidays. I've made 2 New Years resolutions -- one to open up more to my DH & work with him to better our relationship, and the second to get back to my gluten, lactose & sugar aware ways. In trying to accomplish both, I opened up to DH about how I'd strayed with my eating over the holidays & asked for his support in the new year, mainly by helping me keep sweets out of the house as much as possible & by him not encouraging me to eat desserts, i.e., asking me if I want a bite of his when we eat out. He was thrilled with both resolutions & happy to help and support me. I'd thought he'd gotten it in the past, but am realizing that he really needs to be clearly told/asked for him to understand what I want and/or need. Well, he came through last night at dinner. My birthday is on Tues (cannot believe I'm turning 54!), and he had the restaurant bring me a plate of fruit with a candle in it with the desserts ordered by some of the others. It meant so much to me!
SIL leaves this morning 9ish, then DH flies out for the week on business at 2 & my younger DS has a 4 pm flight back to school. So, then just me & my oldest after that for the week. Saying goodbye to my son(s) has been a trigger in the past, but I'm feeling strong, prepared & thinking positively about this opportunity to practice my mindfulness in eating, living & loving this day.... Which I'll start by praying for serenity. And I'll remember to take this one day, and each of it's one moments, meals, bites, thoughts & emotions, one at a time, praying, breathing, logging, posting & expressing my way. I'm sooooooo very grateful for each of you, my family & IRL friends, having spoken up to DH & having his support, having had a wonderful holiday & time with my sons & DH's family, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! Xoxox
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