So on the bus this morning I was thinking--"If I lose 10 lbs by the end of this month and then 10lbs a month after--I will be 260 by September!" And then it got worse "If I change that to 15 lbs a month then it will be 230!!!"...
Oh dear, I hate when i get into that mind set, I mean I want to do this to feel better to be able to walk around without so much effort and feeling so big..but it shouldnt be so much about the numbers. Ever since I was sick, I have lacked motivation to try. I miss that motivation, I miss how good I felt about working out when I started this.
I put some new music on my ipod, I'm going to hit the gym tomorrow morning before heading out of town for Easter. I think I am going to keep track by paper for eating next week I seem to do better when I do it that way. There is something very tangible and I feel more accountable when I actually write it instead of type it.
So here goes...
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