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So I hopped on the scale again today.. 213. Not to shabby.. I bet yesterday was a lot of water. My son is going to school today after a not going for 3 days. It is going to be fine. I work in the library on Fridays so if he is worn out I will just pull him out of school and we will head home. I got my new swim suit.. I like it.. but it shows a bit of cleavage. I sent a pic to my friend.. she said it looks nice.. and my husband said it looks nice.. but I still feel nervous. It is funny like my flat chested friend wears suits cut past her breast.. but all you see is ribs. My suit is cut to the top of my chest but since I am so busty unless I get a scoop neck it shows cleavage. I am not ashamed and I know it is not like I can pretend I dont have boobs.. cause I have buckets full of them. I just feel kinda trashy with the boob crack hanging out there. (note I only really feel this way around my in laws) Also I have always dressed in men's t-shirts and jeans. So I feel weird dressing nicer. Like people will comment, in a negative way. (again my in laws) I dont know that they would.. and no one has yet.. but really I have not dressed up too much in front of them. I usually just wear a pair of jeans and a t-shirt.
I wish mothers day was further away. I would have liked to lost a bit more weight at this point. I feel as though I am never going to drop below 200. I know I kinda took a "year off" and it is not like my diet was not working.. it worked when I followed it.. but that is all water under the bridge at this point. I just need to not think about it. At Easter someone asked me (as I was eating a deviled egg) "you can eat THAT on your diet?" to which I replied "yes.. I can eat whatever I want.. I am grown.. you can't tell me!" we all laughed and the room got really quiet.. and the person was looking at me.. like ok now you were funny but really.. and I said.. yes I eat whatever I want whenever I want.. Just not as much as I want. He said "well it must be working for you cause you look great." I need to keep that in mind. I have come along way.. exercise is part of my life now, and in general I make much better choice and I am (since feb) really thinking about weight loss and loosing. I am glad I dont weigh 281 lbs anymore. I am glad I have jeans that fit and I dont wear sweat pants to easter dinner, or christmas, or birthdays. I am not to goal.. and I wont be for a long while.. but I am sure not where I started.. and I really dont think I will ever go back. (boy is my period making me this sulky) anywho happy weekend.
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1555 kcal
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Vet: 58,49g | Eiwit: 84,82g | Kolhy: 174,89g.
Ontbijt: Spinach and Asiago Cheese Chicken Sausage, ground flax seed, chobani. Lunch: wendy's grilled chicken sandwich. Diner: fat free sour cream, pierogies. Snacks/Andere: Nutty Bars. meer...
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