I'm really glad to be back to this group after being away for so long. I'm sad that some very encouraging friends seem to have also taken a break away. Life gets really hard. For me, I became overwhelmed not realizing that the darkest storm was yet to come. On September 23rd of 2016 we were notified that the young man my daughter had brought into our family as her only love 12 years prior had been killed in a head on collision with a big rig. All four passengers were taken from this earth, no injury to the truck driver. My daughter had lived these 12 years struggling with addiction. Addiction to drugs, addiction to him, and surviving verbal and physical abuse in this relationship. But it was the last few months of his life however, that meant the world to me because it was in these months that I had the opportunity to once again forgive and restore a relationship with him as I'd done many times before but this time offer him mercy. Not from me, but from the word of God. He attended a bible study in his final weeks on earth. I know that all of his struggle is over and he is at peace with the Lord but in this process I gained 50 of the 85 pounds back that I had lost in the months prior. On his birthday of this year, 5/21 I became ready. I'm succeeding. My daughter hit her bottom in February of this year and I can say today that she is soaring to places I never thought possible. Today I'm content. Content with my food. Content with my daughter and her new life and my family is healing. I miss my boy every day, he knows that, but I know he's proud of the both us for doing great things and holding his memory dearly every single day.
