jerrymiller's Logboek, 17 mrt 16

down...
...down is good, If I can see that 205# on the scale, even for one day it would really help my self-esteem I think.

I've discovered as I've been doing this the closer I get to where I'm suppose to be for being a guy 6'4-6" tall (technically, I'm there right now...) I not only physically feel better (BP, acid re-flux, old injury aches, etc...) but those less tangible aspects(mood, depression, self-esteem, grief over the loss of my parents, loneliness, anxiety/fear) all seem to have a harder and harder time bubbling up.

I just know that if I slide back up the scales, all that crap will come back and I can't go through that again...

Sound a bit wonky? Maybe I am, maybe not...I just know I NEVER want to be that zeppelin-like...thing...again.

121# loss in a year and a half...it's like getting out of bad nightmarish relationship (and no divorce lawyers got rich in this separation)

So all of you that are struggling, having doubts, feeling like it's a hopeless en devour...I hope my journey can inject a bit of encouragement, even if it seems like a herculean effort, it's worth it...believe me.

93,7 kg Tot nu toe verloren: 17,3 kg.    Nog te gaan: 0 kg.    Dieet gevolgd: Redelijk Goed.