ilovedallasgreen's Logboek, 29 apr 12

Girl, keep your head up. thinking of you..... I feel almost the same right now. 

:-( I am sorry you're dealing with so much at once. just when you think you can't take anymore something else feels like it's throw at you. when other things in our life feel like they're beyond our control we like to think we still can control our weight. so it feels crappy when that seems to be getting away from you too. if you can't fix a problem completely right away, maybe just chip away at it, little by little. let me tell ya my failure from friday: went to the bar, drinks were free, got blackout drunk in a couple hours, texted dirty suggestive things to my boytoy, then mean stuff, then madeout with his bestfriend (a scrawny, unattractive 7-8yr younger than me twerp) in front of the whole bar, friends took me home at 11pm, i puked and slept on the bathroom floor. Left shoulder & hip still sore, and I have a mystery bruise on my arm. Ruined my non-relationship, lost my dignity, and am still looking for ways to F up my life more.  

Thats exactly right! I am trying to think of the things I CAN control and not stress myself out so much about the things out of my control. I CAN control my weight and i think i would feel alot better about things if i WAS. its like I have no control of anything! Today I have eaten all salad, and soup. I need to get control back and this can start with my diet! ohhh jess! your story did make me giggle a bit :) we've all been there! Have you somehow managed to clear things up with your boy toy (the attractive one!)? Just appologise and say it was really our of character etc etc etc. Im sure this can be reserected! good luck :)