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While attempting to write my bio I accidentally wrote what seems to be a journal entry:
I have been overweight for almost my whole life. I note my highest weight as being 247. After I graduated high school in June 2009 I was motivated to lose weight and ended up losing 68 pounds in close to 6 months using weight watchers. In September 2009 Wesley, my fiance, was diagnosed with testicular cancer. I took him to appointments and after his surgery I slept on the floor of his bedroom instead of his bed because I was scared I would kick him. I helped him do everything from getting up in the middle of the night to making sure he took his medicine. I would take care of him when I wasn't working and only go to my own home to shower and occasionally have breakfast. This is when my trip back up to 240 started. Wesley is now cancer free, but immediately following his cancer free news I was no longer eating because I was upset, I was eating because I was happy. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years followed, only encouraging me to eat more. At the end of January 2010 my Dad had a stroke, and I was the one who called 911. I stood outside in the cold holding the door open for the paramedics to come in. I remember hearing sirens and horns but it felt like they were never coming. Eventually I watched over 12 men walk into my house and as they carried my dad out on a stretcher he touched my hand. 2011 started off by throwing me right back into stress eating. My dad started to recover and today, if you didn't know him, you wouldn't have any idea that he had had a stroke. In February, I turned 20 and began celebratory eating again. My sister amber at this point is 7 months pregnant and we are also planning a baby shower. Julian was born in April and the celebrations continued and i continued gaining weight. In August my dad went back into the hospital to have surgery for an aneurism. It seems like we were in and out of the hospital the entire year. Eventually, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years came around the calendar again and have given me a new outlook: To not be so hard on myself about gaining the weight, and to use exercise and diet to lose the weight again. 2011 is gone, but 2012 will be better. I promise myself that.
So it it the first of the year, I am beginning it on a good 6 hours of sleep (not my usual) but I decided regardless of last nights events I was going to start my year off right.
It is the year of fitness so Karlie and I are planning to go on a walk through the park because shes not feeling up to an actual training day for the 5k.
Though I ended up sleeping for two extra hours and reading a book, sitting on my butt all day, tomorrow I will not turn it down.
February 11th for my 21st birthday, in lieu of gifts, I have asked my family to come run a 5k in my neighborhood. Non-official, of course.
My first 5k was in December on Christmas Eve. Amber ran by my side the whole time and it was really great to have her there encouraging me. We finished in 54 minutes, which averages about 18 minutes per mile. I am currently headed for my third day of the first week of training and its going pretty well so far. Running on a treadmill is easier than on land so I add an incline and i start sweating like crazy.
Next week begins week two, and whether I train with Amber, Karlie or just by myself, I definitely have to get it done.
Anyway, today, January 1st, Karlie and I, like I said are going to go on a walk to start us off. She asked if I wanted to go to Freebirds, a new burrito restaurant in Simi, and they don't have nutrition facts so I guess I wont be eating there. Chipotle is comparable, but it turns out a burrito there with all the fixings I would want to add is close to 800 calories and 38 grams of fat. So, I guess there is a reason I don't eat there anymore.
Today I am a good girl and I have turned down both restaurants and opted for eating at home. You know those Hoffy Extra Lean Hotdogs, they're only like 100 calories and I am all about not giving up the foods I love.
Last year was the best and worst year of my life. This year will be the best.
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Vet: 52,80g | Eiwit: 74,00g | Kolhy: 183,47g.
Ontbijt: green tea, large egg. Lunch: First Street Deli Steak Rolls Enriched, hoffy extra lean beef franks, Marie's Chunky Blue Cheese, Fresh Gourmet Italian Soned Premium Croutons. Diner: el pollo loco pinto beans, Spanish Rice Side, el pollo loco crunchy taco, first street 1% low fat milk, Honey Nut Cheerios. meer...
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