I am 51. I live in Northern Wisconsin. Last time i was an average weight...in kindergarten. I've been "dieting" on and off all my life. I've never followed "fad diets", Just healthier eating and exercise. I struggle with motivation.I enjoy food. Now i often just feel bad about whatever i eat.i can't seem to get it through my head about eating and consequences, since now i am at the point where my weight is causing me real problems. Diabetes didnt slow me down much a few years ago, but pain seems to be more of a motivator.I want to "get it" before it's too late. I am not a stupid person, i just eat too much.I know it's going to kill me, so I need to do something now. I can only try.........again.