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17 november 2011

Pumping at work is so hard. I know its providing the best nutrition for my baby and its supposed to help me lose weight but its so stressful. My work does not have a set spot for me to do it and they require me to be off the clock during that time. Standing around waiting for them to put me somewhere is costing me money. I know its only temporary. I hope I can stick it out a little longer. I hope that Julian starts taking in more food soon and I hope that when I do stop it doesn't make it even harder to lose weight

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15 november 2011

Yesterday I brought a box of baked crackers and hummas to work with me. I thought I'd leave the box at work so I can have it for the week. Unfortunately, I ended u peating the whole box while sitting at my desk. I guss I was just mindlessly eating them while I worked without even think about it. I should have expected that from myself. Lesson learned.

I'm also having a really difficult time with my supervisor lately. She's been working at our company for only about 3 months. She acts like I have no idea what I'm talking about. You don't do what I do every day for 5 years without learning a few things. I'm not making things up; I've worked for years to develop my techniques. I am an expert at what I do. She has no interest in what I have to say about talking to our customers, only criticism. I am consistently one of the top 10 agents at my company. I can't take coaching from someone who has no experience with what I do

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08 november 2011

Gewicht:	Tot nu toe verloren:	Nog te gaan:	Dieet gevolgd:
107,5 kg	0,5 kg	27,2 kg	Redelijk Goed

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06 november 2011

I just had my first baby 6 months ago by c-section. I love him so much even though his birth and my recovery was very traumatic for me. I have lost a significant amount if weight in the past but was slowly gaining since I met my husband. Both of us were. By the time I got pregnant, I was up 30 pounds. During my pregnancy my weight gain was out of control. I was eating healthy and counting calories but I was still putting on about 3-5 pounds per month. I dreaded my Dr. visits because I knew my weight gain was going to be an issue every month. It was hard to let my husband see how much I was gaining every month too but I'm glad he was there go support me at each visit. I don't have much in common with my friends any more. I'm also the first of my generation in my family to have a baby so I feel a bit isolated right now. My husband is great. He loves his son and he will help me by doing anything I ask, but I wish I didn't have to ask all the time.
I guess I am a little overwhelmed. I work full time and I cook and clean and 90% or more of the baby care is up to me when I get home at 11am. There is so much pressure from outside of and within me to be perfect and to balance all these rolls. My self esteem has been in the dumps. All the changes in my body and emotional changes I've gone through this year makes me feel inadequate in just about every area; I feel like I'm not doing enough and I feel like I'm asking too much from my family.
I'm sure all this sounds pretty depressing- but I'm happy to have my little boy and I love my husband dearly and I would do it all over again if I had the choice.
I am eating well and counting calories and working out at the gym and I'm starting to feel better each day. I try to stay positive and be kind to myself to overcome these insecurities that are holding me back.

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02 november 2011

Time 've been trying to make positive changes in my life. Trying to do small things and make better choices every day. I've joined a gym and I have been going a couple of times a week including once with a personal trainer. I haven't lost any weight but I haven't gained either. I do think that I've lost inches. My clothes fit looser and I think my face looks thinner.

I know that I want to lose weight gradually and my mantra is to live the lifestyle of a thinner person in order to become a thinner person. I've been seriously considering going on a 'starvation diet'. IE lowering my calories to 1200 and trying to get this weight off as fast as possible. It's what my trainer recommended to me and it's what a lot of diets recommend. People on the internet say that 1200 is the minimum that you can eat without going into starvation mode. I think that's a little too general. I weight two hundred and forty pounds (shame) and my BMR is at least 17-1800. I don't want to cause long term harm to my metabolism, and I'm still almost exclusively breast feeding my 6th month old (we're trying to introduce some solids but he doesn't have much interest in anything but breast milk)

I've done it before and lost weight fairly quickly. Despite my huge weight loss in the past, I've always had terrible eating habits. After I lost weight I would still skip meals, have coffee for breakfast, and candy for lunch. When I got pregnant and started eating normally, I gained 60 pounds over the 9 months. I couldn't control it and my dr. visits were so stressfull.

I don't know if I can deal with the low calories right now. Life is really different than it was when I lost weight the first time. Work is stressful and I'm not getting much sleep. Obviously taking care of a baby is stressful and I'm in a relationship where we have both enabled eachother to get fat.

I do really well in the morning but by late afternoon and dinner time I have been falling off the band wagon. I feel ready to break these bad habbits. I think it's going to take something drastic so I can overcome the cravings. I'm going to have to be meticulous about planning my meals. Especially dinner time. I might have to avoid family dinner all together. Make myself something different. It won't be fun or sustainable for the long term, but maybe it will help me break out of this cycle of over eating at the end of the day.

I know I probably shouldn't eat less than 20% over my BMR (Which comes out to about 2000 calories at my weight) but it just feels like too much for me. I think I'm going to try to hit my BMR at 1800 calories. If I continue to be moderately active 3-5 times per week I'll still have a deficit.

Destructive behaviors are also still hanging around. I know that it's wrong and it's not helping me lose weight. I think that strict planning of meals and not being alone will help

I just need to dive into it. I really feel motivated. But then again it is 7:30 in the morning. I will commit to food journalling. Everything. Even if I feel guilty for what I've eaten, I'll journal it. It's a step in the right direction and maybe it will help me identify my triggers and vulnerable times of the day. Also I need to stop drinking beer and wine during the week. It's a waste of calories.

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