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22 december 2014
Didn't log on or do anything on the 21st. My father in law finally passed. It's been about 24 hours ago now. Not happy that he has died, but very thankful that all that pain and agony is over. Very happy that my husband and I aren't watching it any longer. His last day was very peaceful - very much unlike the many days leading up to. He suffered so from pain, anxiety, anger, and end of life dimensia. His death was not as hard on my husband or myself as I thought it would be. Hospice is great. We called them, a nurse came right away and handled everything. Amazing how just the calm and understanding that she brought into our house helped.
Tomorrow we go to the funeral home to discuss 'arrangements'. There will be only the cremation. Then we will take him to the coast and set him off into the wind. It is what he and my husband had discussed.
I think I will be taking my Mom's ashes with us and finally put her to rest as well. My Dad suggested that it is time. I agree.
So, for now our house is quiet and seems large again.
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22 december 2014
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20 december 2014
Yesterday and last night was the first time my husband really spent the time to care for his dad, I mean really do the care taking. He's been in our home for a little over 6 weeks. Around 4 a.m. this morning my husband came into our room and woke me "I can't take it any more, can you come out now?" Of course I can.
Hospice had prescribed and highly recommended some meds for the pain and anxiety that patients go through during this time. My father in law has been refusing them so his prgression has been pure torture both for him and for me. The last day and a half, my husband finally gets to experience this. It is absolutely horrible.
Very hard thing to do, to make a decision you know is the right thing to do, but it is not the easiest. We have begun administering these meds. For the first time in 2 weeks, my father in law has slept for more than 10 minutes and is not screaming. If this decision is selfish or not I don't know. My chest is tight all the time for weeks now and my gut is in nots all the time. These last 2 hours have seemed like a small blessing. I can breathe for a bit. I got to take a shower, eat some breakfast and clean up the house a little. And he is resting, so is his son. Just the absence of the screaming will save my sanity for now.
I am rambling.
So so thankful we are in a position to let him be here instead of a nursing home - which would be a whole different kind of hell, I am sure.
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19 december 2014
Thank you all so very very much for your kind words of encouragement and support. It means more that could have ever predicted.
The clock ticks so slowly. I had a bit of an emotional break down a bit ago. My husband handled it pretty well. He can be so very dense about things, so considering well I don't know.
Going to get a chance for a nap soon. Sent him to the store for some more diapers and supplies. Can't wait till later for those things, never know when the need will come up.
Going to go down to the basement with the dogs when he gets home, stretch out on the sofa and sleep. Hopefully I'll get a good couple hours.
Trying to make light of it can help with the mood. I told him I had better get a really good Christmas present. We got a good chuckle out of that because he is the worst at picking out presents for me. We'll see. Just a funny moment in a time warp of crap.
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19 december 2014
Going on 2 1/2 days with zero sleep. I am so tired. My father in law is at the end stages of his life. Literally hours. My house reeks of the lingering cycle of dying. This is so horrible. I have sent my husband to bed. Told him I would take tonights shift as well. He is not handling this well.
I went though this with my mother almost 3 years ago. It took her 5 years of her body to slowly die. My dad cared for her so I was not as exposed like I am now.
This is horrible.
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